all around my head

[fflo]

yep

face, even moreso

it's like i've been transmogrified into a bassett hound


i suppose i should take some consolation in the relative lack of drool

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[peteralway.livejournal.com]

??

[fflo.livejournal.com]

It's the blues, cont'd. "blues all around my head" is a line from some old blues (or two, or twelve). But even though I have a clear and present understanding of how their being around the head is dead-on, I'm saying my face reflects 'em just as much. You know how sometimes your facial muscles are swingin' low, more'n gravity oughta account for?

[peteralway.livejournal.com]

Ah, a cultural reference. All I know about the blues is what the music professor taught me twenty-five years ago. Tonic-tonic-subdominant-tonic-dominant-tonic. Oh and what Riin taught me last year. I've been putting them together recenty:

Tonic(Em)--There's a river in Egypt
It flows north to the sea
Tonic--My wife met a new man
She loves better'n me
Subdominant--And I'm livin in de Nile
Tonic--Yeah I'm livin' in denial
Dominant--Watch out for that crocodile
Tonic--It's livin' in denial

Tonic
Tonic
Subdominant
Tonic
Dominant
Tonic

Tonic--Can't blame the woman
Says she ain't cheatin' on me
Tonic--Says she just discvered
Polyamory
Subdominant--And I'm livin' in de Nile
Tonic--Yeah I'm livin' in denial
Dominant--Watch out for that crocodile
Tonic--She's swimmin' in denial

I started that song in the middle of things last year. Practicing up my blues dulcimer these days, hoping to get a finisshed, playable song out of it by October.

Hope your blues lighten up, or at least that you can turn 'em into a song.

[fflo.livejournal.com]

I've been making up songs through much of this mire. I think of the chords by number---I, IV, V---insofar as I think of 'em when I'm strumming. The which-one-it-is is more in my head at the keyboard.

I like she ain't cheatin' on me, just discovered polyamory---ha.

[peteralway.livejournal.com]

I: I've been making up songs
Through much of this mire
I: Thinkin' chords by number
Numbers one, four and fire
IV: And I'm livin' in de Nile
I: Yes I'm swimmin' in Denail
V: Watch out for that crocodile
I It's a-singin' in denial

[fflo.livejournal.com]

mire / fire

nice

[peteralway.livejournal.com]

You're welcome to swing by and sing the blues any time.

[fflo.livejournal.com]

Did a little gloss on it above. (And thanks.)

[vjsmom.livejournal.com]

Your "inner Mildred" is definitely talking to you these days. But she's not your mother, so you're allowed to tell her to get stuffed (or to fuck off or to just go away or whatever). I'm just kdding--if only it were that simple.

In AA, a lot of people talk about how they can't allow themselves to get "stuck inside their own heads," About what a dangerous place that can be, etc. The suggestion that most of them have for us newbies is that when you find that happening, get out of yourself by doing something for someone else: welcoming a newcomer, calling someone who's having a bad day, helping someone out with a chore or errands, giving someone a ride, or even cleaning up after a meeting. I'm not sure exactly how that translates into the non-AA world, except to again quote Lucy from the Peanuts Christmas special: "Charlie Brown, you need involvement."

[fflo.livejournal.com]

Know what I think? What I'm thinking tonight, and thought part of yesterday, and other times this week? I think I'm sad. Very sad. Thoroughly and deeply and not simply but yet very, and plainly, if with half-hearted flourishes of embellishment, sad.

Did I mention deeply? Yeah, I see I did.

:(

[vjsmom.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you're sad.

Re: :(

[fflo.livejournal.com]

ty, girl. i'm sorry too! appreciate your companionship today. lots.

that's a good icon.

[squirrelykat.livejournal.com]

hopefully that kitten will cheer you up....i'll bring more superballs. i'm very sad they you're sad. don't let the demons take over.