sick. uck.

[fflo]

can't use cpap. kinda on the miserable side.

thanks for your nice comments, you guys who commented nice. i'm doing no extraordinarily opened-eyed coping with my mind & heart & circumstances so far, though. just trying to outlast this bug.

hey, O, am i right that there's a certain sense of community at hot yoga? meant to ask you that.

i did get out of the house briefly yesterday to return some library stuff. stopped at CVS afterwards for kleenex and fingernail polish. yeah, you read right.

did you know that among the extra things (they tote that) they put in fingernail polish (to help the nails grow and be strong & healthy, in their deadness) are nylon, vitamins, aloe, and soy protein? and i didn't even read all of them. also you can spend the better part of a twenty on one little bottle of polish, if you want to.

i feel crappy, and i'm getting tired of it. my glands are wicked swollen; my eyeballs hurt. whine, whine. i had been afraid i might accidentally go in to work today, which we have off. turns out i wouldn't have gone in even if we didn't.

warner bros cartoons on the big screen at the michigan, all you locals who don't feel like crap. starts at 1:30, though, so you'd have to book.

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[bigfinedaddy.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear you're ill, brutha. Sounds dreadful. I couldn't decipher enough of the slightly more cryptic post regarding the gumption to have an idea what's going on there, but it also sounded like potentially not so good space. Hope things look up for you on all fronts very soon.

[fflo.livejournal.com]

thanks, bfd. it's not dreadful. just regular, damn-not-this-again sick. making it hard not to feel sorry for myself.

the other stuff isn't depression, i'm happy to say. probably could be called a good space, one in which i think about grappling, aim to grapple, remind myself of why grappling is desirable and how it's something i believe in. theoretically.

and then there's mud grappling. that's something else entirely. ha ha.

[bigfinedaddy.livejournal.com]

You know those posts of yours can keep 'em guessing from time to time. Glad to hear it's not as bad as I'd interpreted. But I'm sticking to my wish of improvement on all fronts, since who among us really couldn't use that?

[fflo.livejournal.com]

your posts are even more mysterious--- the way you DON'T POST them! ;)

you have a point, however. and i certainly won't be refusing such a wish.

[bigfinedaddy.livejournal.com]

Touche, mon frere.

[fflo.livejournal.com]

hey, wasn't going for the barb. i just know my friends' page would be richer reading with some bigfinedaddys on it.

[shmizla.livejournal.com]

to second good old bfd, sorry to hear the machinery is making life complicated again. are you eating citrus? i've been eating and juicing it relentlessly and it seems to help.

yes, there is some sort of sense of community at yoga. it's mostly joe's accomplishment, i would say, because he knows what to do with people. he's harmless and he's not a glutton for money. london, for instance, was very different; in my experience, this is the friendliest studio i've been at. (in case it didn't become clear, joe was the matchmaker of my most recent personal mismatch and was very invested in hearing that it worked out and disappointed to hear that it didn't; said, "his loss":)

i had meant to say something about the atmosphere and the odd coincidences and compatibilities between yoga and capitalism, but thought none other than me would find the musings interesting. i thin kit is a place where people come to get away from work and hard life, but it's still discipline. it's hard to draw the line between the different disciplines people indulge in; there are many recovering addicts in there. the intentions are good, but it's also always limited or circumscribed by how different people's actual lives are. some of the weirdest and the most anti-social have the best practice.

sometimes the teachers themselves don't get the point, but can ape the form. that might bring the studio down.

[fflo.livejournal.com]

joe sure seemed like a good egg.

[shmizla.livejournal.com]

how's respiration coming along?

[fflo.livejournal.com]

:}

mixed. no clue what kind of luck i'll have tonight.

breathing should be easy. it's autonomic! it's supposed to take care of itself!

but don't get me started.

you still at amer's?

[shmizla.livejournal.com]

still am. about to leave, though.

[fflo.livejournal.com]

well either you did some major distracting, or you put in some time working. or both!

[shmizla.livejournal.com]

that would be both :) i think i have a draft for the job talk intro. i have to cull from the chapter for the talk and then smooth it over.