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fflo ([personal profile] fflo) wrote2020-03-26 11:03 pm

hug thought

It's going to be a long time before I experience another hug.  I may very well have hugged my last hug!

The prospect of never being hugged again, never hugging anyone again--- it was it own shock, when it popped into my head this evening.

There's a fair amount of hugging in queer subculture and in recovery communities.  I suppose I've been spoiled, with not-uncommon hugging through the years, however single I am, however not especially close to anyone around me.  But I like hugging.

These thoughts --- there are hundreds of thoughts like these, lurking out there like so much stealthy virus.
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[personal profile] sabotabby 2020-03-27 12:57 pm (UTC)(link)
I've had that thought too. I was kinda social isolating before this but I could have gone on dates, I could have seen more friends. I'm not a very huggy person in general but now I miss it.

[identity profile] fflo.livejournal.com 2020-03-27 05:07 pm (UTC)(link)
I hear that. I hadn't been dating, but now I'm sorta itching to. And I hate dating.

[identity profile] happysponge.livejournal.com 2020-03-27 01:49 pm (UTC)(link)
YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DIE BEFORE YOU GET ANOTHER HUG.

[identity profile] fflo.livejournal.com 2020-03-27 05:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Ha. I know your heart's in the right place here, but, all due respect, you/we don't really know that. Also it's kinda funny coming from the skeleton icon! :D

[identity profile] amw.livejournal.com 2020-03-28 11:16 am (UTC)(link)
I thought about that the other day too. About how i hadn't touched anyone in weeks. Then i was at the fruit shop and my hand accidentally touched the clerk's and neither of us apologized because i think we were both like... wow, yeah, forgot what that feels like.

Although, if i am really honest, i don't think i have hugged anyone properly since i left Europe. At the work Christmas party one of my colleagues got huggy, but we were both very drunk so it doesn't really count.

I'm not sure if i miss it day-to-day, but when i think about it i feel sad.
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[identity profile] elainegrey.livejournal.com 2020-03-28 05:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Such a hard thought, and knowing that it will be true for some number of people is very heart breaking. I hope that's not your truth.

[identity profile] peteralway.livejournal.com 2020-04-01 02:45 am (UTC)(link)
I've been thinking the same thing. To tell the truth, though, I've gone entire months without a hug from time to time, and as many weeks as not. But who knows how long it'll be.

It's possible that you'll end up being the last person ever to hug me...

I could do worse.