hug thought

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It's going to be a long time before I experience another hug.  I may very well have hugged my last hug!

The prospect of never being hugged again, never hugging anyone again--- it was it own shock, when it popped into my head this evening.

There's a fair amount of hugging in queer subculture and in recovery communities.  I suppose I've been spoiled, with not-uncommon hugging through the years, however single I am, however not especially close to anyone around me.  But I like hugging.

These thoughts --- there are hundreds of thoughts like these, lurking out there like so much stealthy virus.

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[amw.livejournal.com]

I thought about that the other day too. About how i hadn't touched anyone in weeks. Then i was at the fruit shop and my hand accidentally touched the clerk's and neither of us apologized because i think we were both like... wow, yeah, forgot what that feels like.

Although, if i am really honest, i don't think i have hugged anyone properly since i left Europe. At the work Christmas party one of my colleagues got huggy, but we were both very drunk so it doesn't really count.

I'm not sure if i miss it day-to-day, but when i think about it i feel sad.