everybodyspace, nobodyspace

[fflo]

I've taken a decision: it won't be womonspace for me this weekend. I was gonna be getting in free, too, on the gate list as a featured poet, so effectively getting $40 worth of lesbians in exchange for 20 minutes of poetry. (That's $2 of lesbians a minute.)

Various factors have combined to comprise my sad choice. I'm not picking the (likely) more fun option; let me hereby note my hope that, next dilemma, I go with potential fun. This pick, as I suspected it might be, is already a bit depressing, and I'm gonna have to take some care not to exascerbate that.

One reason to stay here is that it'll give me a chance to get started with a freelance project about to come my way. Boring, but the $$ will add up. That bit of income, plus a sort of allowance I have already (from my workplace), will form the better part of my new computer fund. I'm also going to include in it the pennies I've been rolling (about $15), some crazy extra $$ I get from some crazy extra-$$ project I haven't thought of yet, and all the imaginary Money I Might Have Spent in Ohio this weekend. So I can pretty much get whatever computer I want. When they start taking imaginary money at the computer store. And/or when I decide don't care how much debt I want to saddle myself with for it.

Alas & woe, as I called the email to Joanna telling her I'm not coming.

Comments

[shmizla.livejournal.com]

i never know with these things. it often feels like i won't be able to relax (and god knows it's happened) if i know i'm spending money i don't have.

i hope that computer is nice and happy-making. :)

[fflo.livejournal.com]

one advantage of the kind of procrastination in which you stay with outdated computer equipment extra long is that an upgrade becomes quite the treat. not as dramatic if i didn't have a schnazzy machine at the office, but, y'know. yeah.

this to say i hope so too. :]

[shmizla.livejournal.com]

yeah, but still, it's nice to be able to do things quickly from home, and to know that it's all reliable. it might make you stay online even longer, but oh well :)