Who am I kidding?

[fflo]

Just give me the epidural.

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[fflo.livejournal.com]

then i'll have taken an easier & less noble way, and the agonies of whatever seems to want to tear me open/apart will be slightly less acutely painful? serious systemic numbing to encourage the "natural" sense of the grand beauty (one feels one is supposed to have) of what one's giving birth to?

whacks to the face with raw dead meat might help, too, as you (sorta) suggest.

whacking to the face & blows to the head often come to mind in this context.

(btw, i'm nicely numbed & in remission right now, editing and listening to tunes. but the contractions will be back.)

[shmizla.livejournal.com]

yea, there's always that thing when you think that being 'clean' is the best way to know about how it works, when it is your own machine that's interfering with the cognition.

one wonders what kind of drugs would work for this.

[fflo.livejournal.com]

i don't know, but if you got any new ones, let's try 'em out.

[shmizla.livejournal.com]

i've never taken any, partly out of fear that it wouldn't be "me" on them. i'm still very afraid and will do anything to know that i can do all the work of maintenance without outside (chemical) assistance.

on a related note, i keep driving by that temple and thinking how we could make some time to go and check out what they're doing in the mornings on the weekends. how's that?

[fflo.livejournal.com]

let me meditate on that idea. :)

[shmizla.livejournal.com]

please do :)

having read the more recent post, i'm starting to think this is exactly the sort of cure you need: a discipline that believes in the centrality (not the marginality or symptomatic nature) of breath to the general well-being.