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ffloToo cold for open windows open, really. But I do this every so often. Oftener in Spring. Can't shut 'em. Can't do it.
Thunderstorm good. Thunderstorm: good.
Speaking of windows. I was suddenly at an open window to Takky Park tonight, for a coupla hours. By the old-fashioned means of landline. That window was a window of restful ease and magically thoughtless comfort. A surprise gift, with good timing. Spillover into now? Some, yes, I think, yes. Fading as I fade, deeper into the night, and let go to what darkness comes. It's really too cold for these literal windows to be open, and it's coming down hard out there. The kind of hard rain in which you can catch your death. The air off it is cold with wet-cold cold. Why I don't batton down and take cover, I don't know. Or even put some sleeves on. Under the featherdown should invite. But. It's like Drench me with the air of it, at the very bloody least.
In flurry of texting last night told friend am feeling urges toward the drastic. Not drastic as in offing self. Drastic otherwise, but (otherwise) unclear. I have to do something with this energy. Too much of it is skittering around in whatever feels like me, unable to go where it wants, nowhere else to go. And this great rain and this dark night are too cold for drenching in transformative soul-cleansing saturation, and living to tell the tale.
Maybe what's to do is to let go of living to tell the tale.
That river--- they changed the direction of the river in Chicago. How did they do that? Somebody tell me. In very simply expressed, clear step-by-step steps, adapted for the home version. Somebody tell me a. s. a. friggin' p., already.
'Cept I can't promise I'd do it if I could.
The rolling thunder makes long, long spells of crescendo - decrescendo - crescendo - decrescendo. Rumble. Roil. Cauldron bubble. Trouble trouble. Trouble.
Thunderstorm good. Thunderstorm: good.
Speaking of windows. I was suddenly at an open window to Takky Park tonight, for a coupla hours. By the old-fashioned means of landline. That window was a window of restful ease and magically thoughtless comfort. A surprise gift, with good timing. Spillover into now? Some, yes, I think, yes. Fading as I fade, deeper into the night, and let go to what darkness comes. It's really too cold for these literal windows to be open, and it's coming down hard out there. The kind of hard rain in which you can catch your death. The air off it is cold with wet-cold cold. Why I don't batton down and take cover, I don't know. Or even put some sleeves on. Under the featherdown should invite. But. It's like Drench me with the air of it, at the very bloody least.
In flurry of texting last night told friend am feeling urges toward the drastic. Not drastic as in offing self. Drastic otherwise, but (otherwise) unclear. I have to do something with this energy. Too much of it is skittering around in whatever feels like me, unable to go where it wants, nowhere else to go. And this great rain and this dark night are too cold for drenching in transformative soul-cleansing saturation, and living to tell the tale.
Maybe what's to do is to let go of living to tell the tale.
That river--- they changed the direction of the river in Chicago. How did they do that? Somebody tell me. In very simply expressed, clear step-by-step steps, adapted for the home version. Somebody tell me a. s. a. friggin' p., already.
'Cept I can't promise I'd do it if I could.
The rolling thunder makes long, long spells of crescendo - decrescendo - crescendo - decrescendo. Rumble. Roil. Cauldron bubble. Trouble trouble. Trouble.
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Date: May. 2nd, 2007 01:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: May. 2nd, 2007 03:52 am (UTC)for the lesbian, she is beautiful indeed
and next door
and not in the bed
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Date: May. 2nd, 2007 04:00 am (UTC)not in bed
indeed
beautiful, next door
or any bed
indeed
she sighed along
you and i
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Date: May. 2nd, 2007 04:59 am (UTC)if only she
sighed the sigh
of you and me
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Date: May. 2nd, 2007 05:05 am (UTC)or was it april
last year
and then it took
pity on us
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Date: May. 2nd, 2007 05:26 am (UTC)sends but don't deliver
the likes of punk rock
scholar, or other
catcher of fancy, free
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Date: May. 2nd, 2007 05:41 am (UTC)historian remains to fancy
out of reach
much desired
for sympathy