Postcard of the Day

Nondespair Thursday

That's what I called my to-do list today.  I'd started out well, in a sense, by sleeping in, after staying up late last night looking over a bunch more of a(nother) trainee's editing.  The idea was that the blow of yesterday's disspiriting contractor visit came back to me, not long after I woke up for the day, and mentally came back to waking reality.  I'd hoped that I'd have a foothold on at least one or two inroads into the overwhelming challenge of contending with the homestead's needs, but it all seemed much worse after talking to that guy.  Some of what he said contradicted what other reps of his organization had said on the phone, and that was a bit annoying, but mostly it was a heavy blanket of pessimistic impossible-seemingness than he left me with.

I didn't do too bad with it last night, though I did wish I'd be talking to my kind counselor soon.  Stayed in the moment, more or less.  Lost myself in work, and games on the phone, and TV, and work.  And then today there was plenty to do to keep me from it, but maybe it helped to slap that label on my to-do list.  A banner to have across my intentions for the day.

PT was pretty good, again.  This time she did some queer signaling, which was nice.  I got a new variation on one newish exercise, and another wholly new one.  The day's homework is so extensive now that it can be a struggle to get it all in; i have to schedule it.  But I'm highly motivated.  Starting now I'm down to once a week with her.  That'll be easier to fit into life, but I really like PT.

Went to Whole Paycheck on the way home.  Didn't get too much, not wanting to have to carry much, but that's good.  I've been spending money way too much this last stretch, largely from getting take-out food, or even delivery.  But also a couple of LEGO sets, and various things to help with PT, and a Spartans "S" cap for the good sport cake baking bet loser, and this-and-that.  It's a nice luxury to be able to do that, but that doesn't mean I should.  There's a ton I need to pay for, if I can figure out how, and then make it happen.

It hit me today that the yard will need to be mowed in another month or two.  It'll really be nice if I'm up to doing that.  The mower can be a little like a walker, but I'm sure I'll have to be real careful with corners & turns, if I'm able to do some mowing for myself this year.

Also I still haven't started my taxes.  Weekend projects/goals:  starting taxes and getting the screens up from the basement for the windows Dizzy keeps asking me to open for him.

April sure doesn't seem like the cruellest month.  April seems wonderful.  February, for me, this year, in this part of the planet, was the brute.  I smile at you, April, almost here.  And thank you, March, for really helping a lot look up.  Contractor wet blanket aside.